awsome weekend

so i dumped cameron. i know what your sayiny "its about time" but it was really hard to do. so this is what happened. i went and stayed the night with my cousin amber and her fienece J. they have this baby girl named anna she is so cute. anyways cameron was being a real jerk so i told him it was over and to never talk to me. he keeps calling me a hoe on facebook and stuff but i dont care. i met this guy AJ who lives next to amber . he's 16 and super cute. he asked me out last night and i thougth what the heck why not. so we started dating on Christmas. he is really shy though which isnt a bad thing either. i dont have to worry about moving to fast and end up doing something i dont want to do. AJ does BMXing and is really good at it. we went to the skate park and i watched him do tricks and stuff. he was really shy cause i was there and he didnt want to wipe out infront of me.  if he did(which he didnt) i wouldnt think he was a loser or anything cause it takes guts and skills to do that kind of stuff. so i have my little sister over for the week and she like AJ. lol so when they finally took me home AJ came in and meet my uncle it was so funny cause he was standing in the doorway to scared to come in but when he did it was so cute he didnt leave my side. i went outside to say goodbye and give him his hat back and i hugged him. i didnt expect a kiss or anything cause he is really shy but as i pulled away he suprised me with a kiss! it was so cute!!

I totally need to excape!!

so get this i woke up this and went down stairs to use the bathroom and my aunt was in there going through stuff! seriously?? like what would i be hiding in there beside bathroom stuff?? why the heck id she going through all of my stuff? does she think im on drugs or something? i can take a drug test right now and pass! i dont do that crap cause i saw first hand what it can do to people! my sperm donor was a drug addict and he left me and my mom for that carp i dont want to be like that!! thank the lord im leave to go home for spring break!! i need a break form this crazyness!!

FML!!

so talk about a bad trade.. my psyco mom for my over controling aunt. she is driving me crazy!! she stalks me on facebook, myspace, twitter, and any other sites she knows im a member of. im glad she doesnt know about this one. she would probably read it all and lock me in my room till i die of old age. she tells me what to wear, how i need to do my hair, when and what i can eat, she listens to every one of my phone calls, and goes through my phone which i pay for not her. any guy on facebook who was my friend or takling me deleted me cause she says i need to focus more on school. i have straight a's and in all AP classes on top of that i volunteer at the animal rescue shelter tusedays and thurdays after school, wendsdays she made me join math club (so nerdy btw) , monday and friday i get to work from 5 to 8:30 and meal on wheels. and as for my weekends im not allowed to go to anyones house unless they know the parents personally! so much for hangin out with what friends i have!! i work every weekend in the freezing cold!! this life sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

long time no blog

so i havent i blogged in a long time and i guess its cause life is just really shity right now. i basically told all the guys in my life to leave me alone and i dont ever talk to my mother anymore.she sent me a christmas card in the mail today that only said best wishes and merry christmas. i guess thats what happens when a parent really doesnt want her child anymore. i never thought i would feel this numb. i feel like im just a ghost in life. like no one notices or cares about me. oh well i guess just have to try and live life....

december now

well now that its december im going to try and forget everything bad that happened in november.. which means basically everything... oh well there aint nothing i can do about it.. so since my last post nothing has really happened.. except that me and camron are back togehter and he really likes me but i dont think i have the same feelings for him.. i dont get those butterflys wheni think about him and it doesnt make my day when he texts me or any of that stuff.. i think im just with him cause im so lonely. it makes since so i think im gonna end it.. he is gonna make a big deal out of it and threaten to kill himself again which i feel bad when he does but this time i aint gonna get back with him.. i cant just be with him cause he has a crush on me.. plus im so done with men! all they want is sex and once you give it to them your no better than the dirt under their shoes
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life as usual

life is going the same as usual.. sucky! my parents told me yesterday that they didnt want me home for christmas cause ill ruin their perfect family. and that i abuse my mother and they dont want me there to do that to her!! that all bull shit to me! i never abused my mom she abused me.. she told me a bunch of stuff that no mother should tell her child so i guess whatever i guess im staying here for christams! james is really sad about it cause he was so excited about the dance and best friends day... but he knows that if i go back there when my mom is acting like this she wont let me come back here.. so i get like 9 christmas things to go to.. i get a dorid for christmas so i can blog all the time:) anyways so guys news... jeremy told me they werent dating but i still dont believe him and camron says he is going to ask me to marry him!! idk if thats gonna work out with me cause there cant be a relationship without trust..plus i told him that i do have other guys im talking to so he knows everything... omg so there is this guy i have had a crush on sine forever and he chated me on facebook and i was down stairs and when i came back up i inboxed him and he told me to text him! now he wants to take me to the movies and stuff cause he said he liked me for a while but i was with robert (one of his friends) but now that i aint he has really wanted to talk to me but never got up the nerve. idk why guess the guys is completely hott! every girl in school wants him! anyways so guess what??!! so that day that i found out about camron robert texted me and i told him about it and he was like you know what would make him mad and i said what and he siad that if i got back together with him... so now he texts me all the time and calls me.. we talked for three hours last night..he wants to get back together but idk cause everytime we are dating he treats me like crap! he will be all sweet until we date and then he goes back to normal... so idk anymore

thanksgiving so far sucks!!

wellits tanksgiving and its suppose to be fun and stuff but for me it aint!! me and cmron are on speaking terms but not together and he keps saying that he just wants to kill himself if he cant be with me but i dont trust him anymore.. he has to earn it back and until then we are just gonna be friends!  now the whole thing with jeremy is just like camron.. i have decided i aint gonne date until i can date him and he said the EXACT same thing.. well i got on his face book today and his status says "missing my babygirl cant wait to see you friday sweetheart" !! he is freaking lieing to me! and he got pissed at me for some guy saying i was dating him! he tells me he loves me and everything and i do love him but he is probably telling her the same thing!! why are guys such jerks!!?? im never gonna date!! im so sick of all their lies!! thats all men do is lie!!

omg i cant believe camron!!

so you know how we broke up a while back.. well we got to talking and he was tellin me how he loves me and cant live without me and junk.. weel i feel for it and started datin him.. well it turns out he is also dating this girl named elizabeth... life suck sometimes!so i told him to hit the road and to never talk to me again!! i couldnt believe him!! well now that im single again guys wont leave me alone!! sometimes i wish i as gay! anyways landyn wants to date, so does dustin, jeremy, james, steven, and johnathan!! i dont think i can handle all this much longer!

long time no post

its been awile since i last posted and it sint cause nothing has been going on either.. its cause i was sick and then very lazy... anyways i think in my last post i said something about alonso liking me... well i really dont text him because of that fact.. i already have enough boy problems... so im stiill going to snowflake with james ! im flying out on th 17th and ill get in around one in the moring and ill get maybe 5 hours sleep before i have to get up and do stuff to get  ready for the dance and go x mas shopping... at one i hae to go to the movies with james then to hastings( tradition) go back to my house get ready.. go to the lake and take pictures then diiner then the dance.... it gets over at midnight and we go get ice  ream after wards.. i probably wont get home till one.. lovely right!! the next day im doing a dozen things with johnathan!! and on and on down my line of friends..any minute free goes to jeremy:) so lately he hasnt been texting me and i got really worried well today boots texted me asking me if i was cheating in him with this guy named cory ford(btw dont even know who this is) and i said no...and thewn it hit me! thats why he hasnt been talking to me... he asked me a couple of days ago if i knew the guy and i said no and that was the end of it.. i texted him and asked what was going on and he said two people told him and he oesnt know what to belive so i called anna who is like my sister and she called him and threewayed it.. he said that he loves me and is gonna believe me over them !! im so happy i got my babby back!!!

Boy list

I realized it might get confusing between all the guys in my life so im gonna get them straight for you

Alonso- likes me and wants to ask me out
Justin(boots)- really likes me and thinks he is gonna get a chance
Camron- loves me and wants to get married
canyon- likes me but really only wants to "get with me"
casey- ex boyfriend and wants to get back together
chad- ex boyfriend and always wants me back no matter how many times i say no!
Chaise- we hooked up and he still wants to date me..
chapin- ex boyfriend and wants to get back together
Cody- just a friend
Dalton- we were gonna married but he dumped me but he says he still loves me
Dillan- has wanted to date me since the 9th grade and says he loves me
James- my best friend since i moved to russellville an di do have feelinhs for him but im scared
Jeremy- my"boyfriend" sorta i mean we are wating for eachother so we can try again. i really like him
Johnathan- ex boyfriend and wants to get back together
jon- party buddy
Josh- this guy who wont leave me alone he says he will wait forever and i plan on making him wait that long.
Landyn- i meet him a maplewood academy and i guess we are "buddys"
Nathan- dated and he is a complete ass! he thinks we will get back together
Robert- ex boyfriend and we will always just stay friends
Travis Gagnon- we were together but i dumped him cause he was kinda a jerk and plus i dumped him for nathan. he want to marry me!
travis gardner- he just wants a chance but i dont know if he will ever get one.
Camron- he doesnt want to be with anyone but me and if i dont cate him he sayd he will kill himself. he really just needs to get over me.

Day Three... not so bad

day three wasnt so bad...it was a block schedule and i only had to go to odd classes and i didnt have class fifth period so i got lunch and fifth off... two hour break!! i called my aunt and went shopping and went out to lunch... all together it was a good day. and guess what! i get two hours off every thursday!! omg you wont believe what happened to me last night! ok so i was just laying on the couch watching Criminal Minds and my friend Alonso texted me and asked when i was coming back cause he really missed me... well i told him this summer for a visit and he got all sad and sadi he had to tell me something but now that i aint really coming back there was no point...i got him to tell me and guess what??!! he said he was gonna ask me out cause he really liked me and he loves my smile! i always kinda liked him so that made my day!

day two:/

so day two was kinda interesting...i went to first period instead of second, man did i feel like a moron! we have a block schedule wensday(even classes) and thursday(odd classes) and its so confusing! so second period i have us history and to be honest i think the teacher has no clue what she is talking about... we are learning about the civil war and the whole hour and a half was a movie. turns out thats all it ever is! dont get me wrong i dont mind having lazy days but i love history and i actually wanna learn about it! alot of people think im a stupid inbreed hillbilly... cant wait to prove them wrong!! well fourth period i had chemistry and the teacher is from clarksville! he went to collage at tech in russellville! its kinda nice to have someone know what its really like down there! he took me to the peer helpers and they seemed really nice:) there was this guy and he was joking around with me about how it never snows down there... he keeps saying i dont know what ski's or snow looks like! it so funny and to be honest he is kinda cute....i know that i have enough boy problems between camron, jeremy,james, and now landyn but they all live so far away... and to be honest i dont know if im gonna move back next year... i like it here and i dont feel like dealing with everything back home.. i let james read that story and he thinks it about us but i really didnt mean it to be so now he wont leave me alone... dont get me wrong he is my best friend and i do care for him but im realizing that it really isnt like that and that it probably wouldnt work. i have no clue how to tell him that.. ill figure it out.. so anyways at lunch i sat with this girl from chemistry adn she invited me to eat with her at panda exprss tomorrow but idk if i wanna ask for the money... ill proabably just eat at mcdonalds..

Creative writting Story

 Standing in the door way of her new home, looking at her family playing in the floor. A memory flashed across her thoughts. It was a cold night in September during her senior year of high school. She was playing monopoly with her little brother Nathan. She was losing pretty bad due to the fact that she couldn’t focus on the game. Instead her thoughts were on her best friend Landyn. They had been together since the eighth grade and by each other’s side every second of the day. Although lately they hadn’t been spending much time together. He had been acting very strange lately. Just yesterday he called and cancelled Sunday football and the movies Saturday night. Also that Friday night we would not be playing so it would be best if she didn’t come at all. At first she thought he had a girlfriend and he didn’t want her to scare her off. Then her mind thought that something was wrong with him. Something must be going on with his family. Although she couldn’t prove it the thoughts kept coming back. Frankly it was starting to worry her so bad she couldn’t sleep.


The phone rang pulling her out of these scary thoughts. At first she thought her mom would get it so she continued to play with Nathan. After the third ring she got up to answer.

"Smith residents, Kaitlyn speaking." Her family had always been very formal and it made her feel funny answering the phone like that.

“Kaitlyn its Landyn, can I ask you a favor?" his voice sounded scared and concerned. It sounded like he was terrified she would say no.

"What’s wrong? Are you ok? You sound like you are in trouble or something?"

“I’m fine Kaitlyn stop worrying so much! Gosh sometimes your worse than my mother!" He laughed as he said those words, but she could tell it was forced.

“Ok fine, Ill calm down. So what’s this favor you need? It better not be anything involving jail! Ha-ha I’m just kidding." she hoped that would make him laugh. He had never been the kind to get in any trouble. Being the captain of the football team and a member of student council along with a dozen other clubs has its pluses!

“Can you meet me at our tree in five minutes? I really need to talk to you privately." With those simple words her heart dropped and concern filled the hole where it had been. She knew something was wrong.

“I thought you said nothing was wrong!" she said basically yelling in the phone.

“Nothing is wrong. I promise. Now just meet me in five at our tree.” And with that he hung up the phone. She ran up stairs to her room and grasped the keys to her car and a jacket. Passing by her mother’s room to inform her where she was going and that she would be back by curfew. Nathan was upset that the game was over and he couldn’t beat her anymore than he already was.

As she got into her car to start it memories flashed over her of the past summer when Landyn and her had spent every day rebuilding her car. It was a '67 Camero. They had found it together online and decided to make it their summer project. It was going to be his but he surprised her on her birthday with it. He had done all the work. Mainly because she knew absolutely nothing about cars. That didn’t stop them though. They work from the moment the sun came up till long after the sun was gone from the sky.

With a quick turn of the key the engine fired up with a load rawer. She smiled at the thought of Landyn smiling every time he hear that sound. Slowly she backed out of the driveway pulling out onto the quiet little street. With a small tap on the gas she was off. The drive was only a few blocks and she could have walked but she loved driving her new car.

As she drove she passed little trees that were planted just last year. It was a project her and some friends did. They had seen online that during the ice storm during that winter that some trees had been knocked down. Some of them had to be cut because of the power lines. Landyn and her presented the project to the Peace Club and they were all for it.

So lost in thought Kaitlyn almost pasted the parking lot. Stopping just in time to make the turn she hit the brakes and turned on the turning signal. No matter how many times she visits this place she never fails on missing the parking lot. Carefully she turned in, watching her lights run across the park. Catching the side of Landyn’s pants from behind the tree. He turned to see if it was her or not. With a smile at the sight of here he started to walk over to her. Right away she could tell he was thinking hard about something. His hands were in his Levi's and his head was down. He was avoiding looking her in the eye until he had to.

"You know you could have just come over to my house considering it’s about three houses down." Kaitlyn said with a laugh hoping to make him smile. Something she really wanted to see. There was something about him that got to her. His laugh and smile made her heart jump. Like a grasshopper in the summer when you run through the field behind her house.

"Yeah I know but to be honest I wanted to talk to you alone because I need to get something off my chest. I've known you a very long time and you know I would do anything for you. We have been by each other’s side almost every second of every day. Over this past week i know i have been acting strange and if it bothered you I’m sorry..." “What are you getting at Landyn because you’re starting to scare me?"

"Well, I love you Kaitlyn. I have for a while and when you talked about going to Prom with Jon I wanted to keep mu distance because it seemed like you liked him." Hearing all this somewhat knocked her off her feet. She was expecting something horrible. This was just the opposite. When he said he loved her Kaitlyn knew that she loved him to. She never thought about it before but when he said those words she knew.

"Please say something" he said with concern in his voice. She looked up at him with tears in her eyes. She wanted to say something to him. Something that would let him know she felt the same, but the words just couldn’t come out. She looked up at him crying, nodded and smiled. That was all she could do.

Landyn reached out and grabbed her, pulling her into him “It’s ok Kaitlyn I know what you want to say. You don’t have to be scared. I’m here and I’m not going to hurt you like the others have. I promise."

She knew the truth of his words.

Fifteen years later looking back on that night she smiles at the life it gave her. The husband she now has and the three beautiful girls. If someone had told her years ago she would marry her best friend Kaitlyn would probably laugh in their faces.

day one at fort collins high

first day of school was pretty interesting! i learned that my creative writting teacher is crazy and has a mouth like a sailor. my chemistry teacher is from clarksville and you can totally tell. oh and get this we are having a dance in a week and im suppose to ask some stranger to go with me ! and to top all that off i have a bottom locker!! lovely right? ok so maybe it wasnt so terrible.. i mean some people were pretty nice.. besides the fact that i had a dozen people ask if i was together with my cousin and if i eat road kill!! i went along with to  road kill part just to gross this girl out. you should have seen her face! PRICELESS!! i think see was about to throw up! oh and get this.. there was this guy who was trippin on acid and flippin out in the bathroom and a bunch of teachers were in there trying to calm him.. this year is gonne be crazy! oh i almost forgot i have to write a short story for creative writing so im going to do it about me and james... its fiction but kinda true.. ill post it when im done

Yaye! one more day of freeedom!!

so i get one more day of freedom! my mom didnt get this paper signed so they wont take me till tomorrow! ong i did so much shopping yesterday i came home and crashed!! only for a little bit when my aunt got home we went to this place called plato's closet.. its got so many cute clothes! Its a second hand shop but the clothes are all really nice and maybe only worn twice! anyways the most funnest thing i ever had to hear happened this morning.... uncle dave and aunt kim gave me the drug, sex, peer presure talk! omg it was so funny... i think they already started reading parenting books... dont get me wrong it was kinda cute to cause you could tell it came right out of the book but you know at least they care enough to give it!

ugh new school

well first off starting a new school is never fun... and this new school is more like a collage!! its huge.. i mean the have to name the hallways like streets so you wont get lost!! and i only saw a small part of it! im so nerves cause im different from everyong else... and to be honest im scared ill be made fun of cause of the way i talk.. hearing me talk you can tell im from the south and plus everyone is probably gonna say that whole sleeping with your cousin joke!! but really we dont do that! oh well i guess ill just have to get over it cause its something i have to face... i couldnt enroll today anyways cause my mom needs to sign some papers so aunt kim can enroll me in school.. so im going to the mall :) shoppin is a girls best friend! no matter what anyones says it always makes girls feel better to eat chocolete and to go shoppin so i think im going to do both :D

Broncos game !

omg it was my first NFL game ever and it was completly amazing! we had seats right over the goal post! they kicked kansas city chiefs but.. i think the end score was Denver 49 Kansas city 29. in the first quarter broncos scored 27 points and chiefs 0!! omg and in the fourth quarter two players were going for the ball and the ran right into each other and the ball went flying into the air and this other guy jumped up and caught it and landed right in the end zone giving the broncos a touch back!! best game i have ever seen! but i think it was only cause it was my first pro-football game!! omg so jeremy has been trying to call me but last night i was at a dinner and the one before that i was at a eagles hockey game..so last night after i got home he finally called me. he told me he really wanted to tell me something but he didnt know how i would react or if i would feel the same way..... yep you guessed it he told me he loves me!! he said he has really been thinkin about it and he knows its true. that it aint  some thing that comes and goes and that cause im in colorado and its not all about the phsyical stuff he realized it! idk if i feel the same but im gettin there:) 

boy news

so you guys know how i asked james to the dance well now he was planning to ask me out but i moved to my aunt kims in colorado... oh ok so i broke up with camron! i was getting ready to go to this party with alicia out at boots and jeremys and i tried to call him cause he wouldnt talk to me and he wouldnt answer then he texted me saying how dare i call him and how could i think that ?!? tasha told him i thought he was cheating on me !! i never thought that!! i tried telling him i didnt say that but he wouldnt believe me over tasha ! totally not gonna work !!! so i dumped him  and now he wont leave me alone saying that he is gonna die with out me and stuff like he loves me and junk.... he barely knows me ! anyways at the party jeremy asked me out and of course i said yes cause the guy is soooo hott!!!  i mean he has a six pack and everything and his truck is totally awesome.. plus he is really popular and has awesome parties all the time !! but he hasnt has a girl friend in a couple of months so he aint a player :) i really like him! and now that i  live in colorado he is waiting for me !! the day i was leaving he came over and stayed all night with me ( no we diidnt do anything) anyways he made me promise  to come back so he can have his chance.. he calls me babe and baby and everything:)

wow

well to much has happened for one post so this is like one of three. umm where to start? ok well lately me and my mom have been fighting a lot ltely and its mainly cause she still thinks im twelve and i dont like being treated like im a child anyways we got into a fight one morning cause the the night before a brought MY CAR back to the house at eleven friday night .. its bull cause it aint a school night and curfew was twelve plus a was gonna stay the night with my friend alicia(not r i couleally i was going to a party with jeremy) anyways so the next morning when i got home she starts yellin at me!! says that i need to buy MY CAR FROM HER!!!! i know its messed up!! i couldnt take it anymore so i called up my birth day and aunt kim and told them a needed to get out of there... i mean my mom was saying some really messed up stuff and i wasnt keep putting up with it

Snowflake plans

Our school has this dance and girls are suppose to ask the guy. Well i asked James:) I was going to ask him monday but i couldnt wait. We have English together 6th period so i went in 5th and wrote all over the board in the back of the room. He was running late but everyone even the teacher was say "its about time" and "finally" (lol) I mean is it that easy to see that i have feelings for him? We are always together and everything but I'm terrified about being with him. Cause me and Robert were really good friends and we dated and broke up, me and Dalton were like best friends and we broke up and now we barely talk. I would die if that happened to me and James!! He has always been in my life and I dont really think I could function without him. He says I shouldnt worry cause he isnt like them but still I cant help it! OMG i have no idea what dress I'm gonna get?!?! i want something really pretty, but every girl wants that(lol) I told my mom that I might go with him and she really wants me to date him! so yeah Camron hasnt talked to me all day
!! im reallt worried cause he barely talked to me yesterday to. When ever I text time he is always with friendsand I'll send him something after he told me whats up and all he sends me is a smiley face or lol. I dont know if I did something wrong or if he is just getting tired of me:*(  I guess it aint gonna work out. OMG I forgot to tell you guys that my best friend Cynthia will be back monday morning! she moved last year and us three(me, James, and Cynthia) were like the three musketers. It is gonna be such a surprise to James! She told us she was going to move to Oklahama but it was just a trick. She texted me and told me cause she coulnt stand keeping it to herself anymore! I'm so excited!

totally not gonna work pal!

lol ok so im in 7th period and i have it with both my ex's(i know lovely right) well i walk into class and its the first time dalton has seen in like to days and camron left this HUGE hickey on my neck.. i mean it looks like i got punched in the neck. well once dalton found out that i have a new boyfriend and that we are messing around he got pissed:) then he tried to rub tory in my face.. its so low! i mean i didnt mean for him to see my hickey but you kinda cant miss it!! and besides he dumped me not the other way around so why would he be mad at me for moving on just like he said  i should!! i mean if he still cares he shouldnt have dumped me in the first place!well its to late now i aint coming back! im really starting to fall for camron and besides he dont deserve someone like me! at least  thats what camron tells me all the time:D

november 3-4

well i have this best friend alicia and she used to date this guy jeremy. she really liked him and he dumped her for his ex(wow guys do that alot) anyways on the night the whole taco bell thing happened jeremy was there and when he took us home and tasha gave him my number! he has been texting me non stop!!like he texted me last night and asked if i wanted to hang out at walmart with him and travis and nathan and some other dude.. well i was gonna cause they are all my friends and camron said it was fine.. once i said i would be able to he started calling me babe and all that stuff! i told him i was with camron and he wants me to dump camron for him! totally not gonna happen! unless camron dumps me first.. cause he has kinda been actin wierd lately.. like i'll text him and usually we text non stop but ill text him and he will send back these short one word texts. and it takes forever for him to text back? it aint like him to be like this.  i text tasha to see if he was talking to her about us cause he usually does but she wont ever text me! oh well maybe it aint ment to be!? i hope it is cause im really starting to fall for him

crazy night last night

well lets see i faked sick and stayed home yesterday and as soon as my mom left i text camron to come over:) it was amazing!! js.. he is so funny and cute i think inm really falling for him.. omg he did the cutest thing.. when me and dalton broke up i changed the banner on my phone to saw love is a myth. well i was asleep and he changed it to love is not a myth.. and then i texted him once he lft and asked him about it and he said it isnt cause im falling in love with you:) it was so cute... anyways i went to a party last night out at travis's house. it was lame!! they are real dicks.. they treat women like they are a peice of meat!!

OMG! best weekend of my life!!

omg never thought i would be happy again but this weekend proved me wrong! friday we had no school so me, james, jasmine, and christina were all gonna watch scary movies.. well jasmine and christina didnt come so i texted my friend tasha and asked if she wanted to come. she asked her dad and he said yes so then she asked if she could bring this guy and if i was single:) i told her yes cause i broke up with johnathan thursday... amywasy the guys name camron! he is soo sweet and hott! he came over and we had the best time ever. so then tasha texted me and wanted to know if i could spend the night with her and that if i could camron could come over and stay to:) so me and camron stayed up all night talking and watching tv! best night ever!! and i didnt get any sleep so satureday morning i had to leave at like 8:30 casue tacha had to work. i went home and my parents got this crazy idea to go to the fall fest down town at like 9:00 so i didnt get to go to sleep. we were there almost all day and when we finally went home we had to start getting ready to go trick or treating. and since my mom had to work this year i had to take ellie, plus my friend savannah texted me and asked if her and her sister grace could come. and if her boyfrined Tj could come. and then johnathan( the one who wont leave me alone) came with... we walked all over town until like 9:30 and i called my mom and asked her to come get us. she wasnt to happy with savannah cause she has a baby and was out all night sucking face with Tj! so we took all of them home and i got to stay the night with tasha again! :D she hadnt seen her boyfriend in likt a month so i drove her up to perryville and me her camron and andy all hung out till like 12. we had to go cause camron had to work the next morning...i was kinda mad cause my mom said i couldnt go anywhere but tashas so i needed gas money and they never gave me any so i got in huge trouble with my mom last night... then we get back to russellville adn travis texted me and asked if i wanted to go to a party but we had to wait till kenny(tashas dad) was asleep and travis didnt want to wait(jerk!) so we went to walmarts and meet up with people and they were pullin out as we were pullin in so we met at taco bell... not saying who but one of my friends tried to drift aroung the drive through line and drove right through the menu sign and hit the building!! we all hauled ass and got out of there!! they didnt she the suburban that did it and thought it was the white ford truck... i had to follow the dude home and then he tred to get tasha to dump andy for him so we texted jeremy to come get us. he is so funny we were singing at the top of our lungs ...after that i just went home

weird day :/

so i am really just havin a bad day all together. i brok eup with johnathan 2nd period and he still follows mw every where!! i think that im gonna have to be mean to him about it! i mean i dont want to but i think i might have to...adn in chemistry 5th robert was kinda in a bad mood and i mean he wouldnt even talk to me at lunch so i asked why and he was just having a bad day... i got him in a better mood by the end of the period but i asked him if he wanted to hang out friday and maybe go to the game but he said he might have to go to this thing with his mom and watch the dracula movie. what kinda made me mad was that he said if he didnt have to go he wanted to hang out. but he didnt want to go to the game so i asked what he wanted to do and he said me.. umm idk how that is gonna work out! i mean yeah when we dated we did do stuff a lot but we dated for a long time. and if he thinks its gonna work out like that im sorry. anyways i got to english 6th and we went to the library and i wasnt  feeling so good and ever since i told james i kinda do have feelings for him he keeps trying to hold my hand or hold me in general. i mean i dont mind and all cause i do like him like that kinda but im terrifid to lose him. i mean dalton was kinda like my best friend and broke my heart. i have every right to be scared right?? anyways me and him are having best friends day friday and we are watching the collecter. its the best scary movie of all time... so 7th period i got to class and sat down at the computer i thought was mine and daalton tells me i need to scoot down one computer and there was this purple jolly rancher!! when we were datin he would always give me one:) that totally made my day!! im just happy he is talking to me again!! i hate not talkin to him! so maybe my day wasnt so bad!!

october 28

robert and me were totally gonna hangout on  halloween but he texts me this morning and tells me he cant cause he has to take his little cusins trick or treating. which is fine i totally understand. so i texted travis and asked what he was doing saturday and he said probably going to a party with his best friend nathan. but if i wanted to do anything then he would ditch nathan for me! good cause i hate nathan! anyways i told him ill see cause james wants to go trick or treating with me. to be honest im kinda scared to be anything more than friends with him. i mean he has been my best friends since 8th grade. he told me about this weird dream he had cause he has been reading those percy jackson books and in the last one the girl kisses him. he dreamed that i kissed him.. he told me yesterday how when we would have our best friends day he wanted to hold my hand and kiss me so bad but he was scared i wish he did it before i dated dalton it would have saved me from the pain. omg and then johnathan texted me last night and asked if something was wrong. the truth is i kinda dont want to date him. he is so clingy! i like my space a lot and he always wants to be there. i think the only reason i dated him was to try and get over dalton. so idk how im going to do it but i think im gonna break up with him.

guy problems!!

ok i got some major problems!! my ex robert asked me if we wanted to try again and that he really misses me and loves me but im johnathan who is always wantin be with me fyi that is so annoyin cause i love my space and then i told james my best friend the truth that i had feelings for him cause the girl he liked was a jerk km him and then travis wants to hang out today and i really really really like him so i have no idea what to do

October 21

well i havent posted ofr a while i just havent found the time.. so yeaterday was our anniversary and i told him he better not et me anything but he did anyways.. i got flowers and (because i dislike chocolet) he went and got a box of chocolets took them out and put potato olays :) it was so cute.. so my best freind alicia is dating my ex chad and he is totally sheating on her. she knows it i know it but we couldnt prove it. so monday after school me her and cassie where hanging out and we got this idea.. we get him to start saying he wants to dump her for me and if he does that means he aint faithful. it worked to cause like four days ago he said he wanted me backk and i was like umm no  sorry. then the next day he told me in front of dalton that he wants me back!! bad idea dalton was about to punch him in the face!! but violance never solves anything! so he fell for the whole telling me he loves me thing and she broke up with him. well when dalton got on break i told him what was going on (i tell him everything) and he was mad cause the dude was talking to me..

october 27

yesterday was carzy!! i gave dalton that htree page note saying i aint angry for him doing what  made him happy and stuff like  that. well he gives me ones back saying that he only said he loved me cause he was running from his feelings for tory! and that i should fall out of love with him for my own good! what a jerk!!! so then i talked my friend alicia to come home with me. we watched a movie and ate pizza. and my mom was really sick so i called my dad and he came down and got here better so i took the car and picked up macy(my kinda sister) we hung out for like 5 minutes and then i had to take alicia home. i got bored so i texted travis and asked if he wanted to hang out so we met at walmart. had a blast until nathan showed up(his best friend) and starts calling me a hoe! so i left and told him id come back when natha left. so i went to taco johns and dalton was working on his day off!! it was the worst idea ever! i thought he was off in my defenece! so i order my taco and go sit down and he comes over and slams it down on my table! i jjust grabbed it and left crying. i texted travis  and was like idc if he is there im goona hang out with you anyways. he was all happy and junk. so i went back to walmarts and him and his friends were just hanging out next to there souped up cars and as i walk up to him he whispers in my ear to say im his girl friend.. cause everyone thought i was cause he talks about me non stop! awww! so we went to taco bell and sat down and his friend starts yelling at the workers to come and clean his table. it was so freaking funny. he goes up to the counter and asks for a rag and  windex to clean his table. so a guy comes out and cleans it all pissed off! they left and it was just me and him and macy ... macy wouldnt  shut up!! i know that mean but its true!! he was tryinh to talk to me and stuff and she wouldnt leave us alone.... when i finally had to leave he walked me to my car and kissed me!! he said that he wanted to see me today cause he really has been missing me.. AAAWWW! sorry i have always liked travis he has always been so nice to me. plus he is really hott!!! but the down side is he is 22. oh well i dont mind we havent done anything yet!!

october 26

life pretty much still sucks. same as yesterday but it is kinda getting better. yesterday johnathan came home with me and we watched RV. that really funny movie with robin williams in it. my little sister ellie stabbed this guy john( not the guy i like) in the arm with a fork cause he kepps coming over and bothering me. he just doesnt get that no means no. i would never date him in a million years. he is rude and looks at women like all they are is a piece of meat!! anyways dalton tried talking to me yesterday at lunch. he said he made a mistake and that the girl he left me for was really being a witch to him. i almost took him back.. he pulled the whle guilt trick on me. but i didnt :) i made johnathan stand by me and leave my side all day yesterday. i think dalton got the hint cause in cba he wont sit by me at all ... we are assinged to sit right next to each other and he just asked to be moved... i wrote him a three page note last night cause i couldnt sleep... i think i might put it on here for yall to read.... i might give it to him but im kinda scared he will just make funn of me... anyways johnathan asked me out yesterday. we were up at our spot (i guess thats what you can call it) and he asked if i liked him and i said yes, he asked if he made me happy and i said yeah. then he asked if we could date so he could make me happy all the time...he really is a sweet guy!!!

october 25

worst weekend of my life. friday night me and my mom got into an argument and we both went to bed mad. i hate it when we fight cause my mom is like my bestfriend hen i get woken up at 4:26 in the moring and dalton sends me this message" im sorry i lied to you when i said that i didnt love tory anymore and i cant be with you knowing she still loves me" i spent all morning crying and then my friend johnathan texted me and i told him what happened so he came over and spent the day with me. we went to the park and to the movies, than went and walked around stores messing around, then we went and played at the middle school. we got bored and went to the park. he showed me this trail up to a lake and we skipped rocks and talked. then .. he kissed me! i know its wrong but i kissed him back. he is so nice and everything a coulnt help it. before we hung out every where i took him to this spot ona trail where there are cliffs above it and then there is this lake you can look over. the trail was beneth us and we started pranking people by throwing bottles down and scaring them. it was probably the funnest day of my life and i didnt cry until i got home and i was all alone again. so then sunday my nana and grandpa cliff came into town from colorado and i really didnt want to tell them what happened and i didnt feel like cryinh anymore so i texted johnathan and we hung out. lol i was suppose to stay clean for my nana but we ended up going to the beach at the lake and played in the sand and the water. then we both sat on the beach and he held me and we just talked. i know i should have but i liked it when he held me. i felt safe again. it got interupted when my dad called and asked if a wanted to eat liunch with him. i took john with me and we had fun. then we went to a park and played for a little bit and then we just talked and he kissed me again. he felt bad and apoligized but i liked it!  thenmy bff savannah texted me and we went and played soft ball at her house. she said she could tell he likes me but idk if i wanna be more than friends. cause if something were to happen and we werent friends anymore my life would really suck!! so anyways my mom has to work today and we get out early so im making him come home with me. i cry when im alone and can think so i think im just gonna have him around all the time. then today i gave dalton all his things back and as i was walking off he said something about wall mart. so i think he saw me and john hanging out at walmart. oh well he dumped me and plus we are only friends:)

October 18

over the weekend my computer broke so i couldnt realy blog :( nothing really happened for once! friday night i did homework so i wouldnt have to do it sunday night, then saturday i cleaned the whole house and my dad came down!! my parents have a very weird relationship! they are married but they dont live together! its better than getting divorsed. oh guess what!! my dad bought me two new horses !!!! ones a two year old girl she is a dark brown thourobred( i think thats how you spell it) and then the other one is a buck skin gelding ! i dont know what to name them yet.. oh and then satureday night my friends nathan and travis texted me and wanted to know if i would go off roading with them but instead i stayed home and watched prince of persha with my family and ate ice cream & popcorn!! best night ever!! sunday me and my family just hung out and stuff.. i went to church with dalton and meet his friends kaitlyn. she seems really awesome! i read a lot and so does she so we talked a lot about books last night.

October 15th

so last night i went and saw dalton on break and there is this girl at work who likes him alot, and the entire time she just sat there and gave me dirty looks. i dont care if she has a thing for him cause he loves me and i love him so there is nothing to worry about. but i still didnt like it to much. it felt like she was about to jump over the counter and kill me! anyways i was so tired i went home and took a nap. i have tis thing were my blood is very very thin and it hard for my heart to pump it out . so  a havent told him about it yet because he already worries about me. well when he came over last night i was asleep and he just came up stairs and kisses me on the cheek :0 we sat there and talked for about 2 hours before he had to leave. i told him and i feel so bad cause he couldnt sleep. he was up all night cause he had this dream that we were married and i had a baby boy but because of my condition i died... it made me cry :( i really hope that dont happen!

October 14th, 2010

Last night I found out that Dalton is about to ask me to marry him!!! He doesnt know that I know but when we went to church last night this lady didnt know what the ring was for so she just asked me my ring size! He is having it customed made so it relates to us. Like last friday we were walking down the hall and someone was like Karlee , Dalton and held up there hands making a heart and we made a heart back with our hands still connected so it made a connected heart and he put that on my ring! I talked to his brother Justin and made him tell me everything(sorry im nosey) and he plans to ask my dad before he asks me! which I think is so sweet and kinda old fashioned but I love how much of a gentleman he is :) He is going into the marine corp and tradtition in my family is that we get married when he graduates out of boot camp. Him, my dad, and my brother all sit around and tell stories. Gabe just got out this year and my dad got out a long time ago but still remembers everything. Every generation there is a guy who goes into the marine corp its kinda a tradition I guess. I think since dalton will soon be part of the family it counts. well anyways I know my dad will say yes cause he loves Dalton and already thinks of him as part of the family. He also loves him casue Dalton has never tried to pull the moves on me or make me do anything i dont want to  and the fact the we are waitin :)

All About Me

So my real name is Karlee and the reason for my name is cause I love Iron Man!! Basically any super hero. Anyways so my life is pretty insane even for a high schooler and I think i will go insane myself unless I blog about it! Now I'm gonna admitt I aint perfect and I'm human so I'm gonna do stupid things so please dont right anything mean cause I hvae feelings just like everyone else. Please and thank you:) Anyways you might want some backround on my life so that you know what the crap im talking about (lol) . So I'm the middle of 7 kids, and all but one my mom gave birth to. So here are there names: Gabe(23) Becca(21) Josh(21) Me(17) Sarah(15) Jake(13) and Elizabeth(11). Growing up was awesome and weird at the same time. My real dads name is Danny but I barely know him. The man i call my daddy is acutally my step dad but he has been there for me since I was 3 months old. Josh is my step brother and we barely talk to him. Oh and my family moves ALOT! I mean I think we have lived in six states and moves 27 times. My lfe is pretty crazy, and now high school stuff! I'm a junior and I'm dating the most amazing guy ever! I have lived here since the 8th grade and I've known him since then. I was dating this guy named Robert and we dated for 19 months. It ended pretty well and we are friends and I still love him but im not in love with him. My best friends name is James. I've known him since 8th to. He do everything together and Dalton is great friends with him to! So its never weird between us three :) Life is totally perfect right now!