weird day :/

so i am really just havin a bad day all together. i brok eup with johnathan 2nd period and he still follows mw every where!! i think that im gonna have to be mean to him about it! i mean i dont want to but i think i might have to...adn in chemistry 5th robert was kinda in a bad mood and i mean he wouldnt even talk to me at lunch so i asked why and he was just having a bad day... i got him in a better mood by the end of the period but i asked him if he wanted to hang out friday and maybe go to the game but he said he might have to go to this thing with his mom and watch the dracula movie. what kinda made me mad was that he said if he didnt have to go he wanted to hang out. but he didnt want to go to the game so i asked what he wanted to do and he said me.. umm idk how that is gonna work out! i mean yeah when we dated we did do stuff a lot but we dated for a long time. and if he thinks its gonna work out like that im sorry. anyways i got to english 6th and we went to the library and i wasnt  feeling so good and ever since i told james i kinda do have feelings for him he keeps trying to hold my hand or hold me in general. i mean i dont mind and all cause i do like him like that kinda but im terrifid to lose him. i mean dalton was kinda like my best friend and broke my heart. i have every right to be scared right?? anyways me and him are having best friends day friday and we are watching the collecter. its the best scary movie of all time... so 7th period i got to class and sat down at the computer i thought was mine and daalton tells me i need to scoot down one computer and there was this purple jolly rancher!! when we were datin he would always give me one:) that totally made my day!! im just happy he is talking to me again!! i hate not talkin to him! so maybe my day wasnt so bad!!

october 28

robert and me were totally gonna hangout on  halloween but he texts me this morning and tells me he cant cause he has to take his little cusins trick or treating. which is fine i totally understand. so i texted travis and asked what he was doing saturday and he said probably going to a party with his best friend nathan. but if i wanted to do anything then he would ditch nathan for me! good cause i hate nathan! anyways i told him ill see cause james wants to go trick or treating with me. to be honest im kinda scared to be anything more than friends with him. i mean he has been my best friends since 8th grade. he told me about this weird dream he had cause he has been reading those percy jackson books and in the last one the girl kisses him. he dreamed that i kissed him.. he told me yesterday how when we would have our best friends day he wanted to hold my hand and kiss me so bad but he was scared i wish he did it before i dated dalton it would have saved me from the pain. omg and then johnathan texted me last night and asked if something was wrong. the truth is i kinda dont want to date him. he is so clingy! i like my space a lot and he always wants to be there. i think the only reason i dated him was to try and get over dalton. so idk how im going to do it but i think im gonna break up with him.

guy problems!!

ok i got some major problems!! my ex robert asked me if we wanted to try again and that he really misses me and loves me but im johnathan who is always wantin be with me fyi that is so annoyin cause i love my space and then i told james my best friend the truth that i had feelings for him cause the girl he liked was a jerk km him and then travis wants to hang out today and i really really really like him so i have no idea what to do

October 21

well i havent posted ofr a while i just havent found the time.. so yeaterday was our anniversary and i told him he better not et me anything but he did anyways.. i got flowers and (because i dislike chocolet) he went and got a box of chocolets took them out and put potato olays :) it was so cute.. so my best freind alicia is dating my ex chad and he is totally sheating on her. she knows it i know it but we couldnt prove it. so monday after school me her and cassie where hanging out and we got this idea.. we get him to start saying he wants to dump her for me and if he does that means he aint faithful. it worked to cause like four days ago he said he wanted me backk and i was like umm no  sorry. then the next day he told me in front of dalton that he wants me back!! bad idea dalton was about to punch him in the face!! but violance never solves anything! so he fell for the whole telling me he loves me thing and she broke up with him. well when dalton got on break i told him what was going on (i tell him everything) and he was mad cause the dude was talking to me..

october 27

yesterday was carzy!! i gave dalton that htree page note saying i aint angry for him doing what  made him happy and stuff like  that. well he gives me ones back saying that he only said he loved me cause he was running from his feelings for tory! and that i should fall out of love with him for my own good! what a jerk!!! so then i talked my friend alicia to come home with me. we watched a movie and ate pizza. and my mom was really sick so i called my dad and he came down and got here better so i took the car and picked up macy(my kinda sister) we hung out for like 5 minutes and then i had to take alicia home. i got bored so i texted travis and asked if he wanted to hang out so we met at walmart. had a blast until nathan showed up(his best friend) and starts calling me a hoe! so i left and told him id come back when natha left. so i went to taco johns and dalton was working on his day off!! it was the worst idea ever! i thought he was off in my defenece! so i order my taco and go sit down and he comes over and slams it down on my table! i jjust grabbed it and left crying. i texted travis  and was like idc if he is there im goona hang out with you anyways. he was all happy and junk. so i went back to walmarts and him and his friends were just hanging out next to there souped up cars and as i walk up to him he whispers in my ear to say im his girl friend.. cause everyone thought i was cause he talks about me non stop! awww! so we went to taco bell and sat down and his friend starts yelling at the workers to come and clean his table. it was so freaking funny. he goes up to the counter and asks for a rag and  windex to clean his table. so a guy comes out and cleans it all pissed off! they left and it was just me and him and macy ... macy wouldnt  shut up!! i know that mean but its true!! he was tryinh to talk to me and stuff and she wouldnt leave us alone.... when i finally had to leave he walked me to my car and kissed me!! he said that he wanted to see me today cause he really has been missing me.. AAAWWW! sorry i have always liked travis he has always been so nice to me. plus he is really hott!!! but the down side is he is 22. oh well i dont mind we havent done anything yet!!

october 26

life pretty much still sucks. same as yesterday but it is kinda getting better. yesterday johnathan came home with me and we watched RV. that really funny movie with robin williams in it. my little sister ellie stabbed this guy john( not the guy i like) in the arm with a fork cause he kepps coming over and bothering me. he just doesnt get that no means no. i would never date him in a million years. he is rude and looks at women like all they are is a piece of meat!! anyways dalton tried talking to me yesterday at lunch. he said he made a mistake and that the girl he left me for was really being a witch to him. i almost took him back.. he pulled the whle guilt trick on me. but i didnt :) i made johnathan stand by me and leave my side all day yesterday. i think dalton got the hint cause in cba he wont sit by me at all ... we are assinged to sit right next to each other and he just asked to be moved... i wrote him a three page note last night cause i couldnt sleep... i think i might put it on here for yall to read.... i might give it to him but im kinda scared he will just make funn of me... anyways johnathan asked me out yesterday. we were up at our spot (i guess thats what you can call it) and he asked if i liked him and i said yes, he asked if he made me happy and i said yeah. then he asked if we could date so he could make me happy all the time...he really is a sweet guy!!!

october 25

worst weekend of my life. friday night me and my mom got into an argument and we both went to bed mad. i hate it when we fight cause my mom is like my bestfriend hen i get woken up at 4:26 in the moring and dalton sends me this message" im sorry i lied to you when i said that i didnt love tory anymore and i cant be with you knowing she still loves me" i spent all morning crying and then my friend johnathan texted me and i told him what happened so he came over and spent the day with me. we went to the park and to the movies, than went and walked around stores messing around, then we went and played at the middle school. we got bored and went to the park. he showed me this trail up to a lake and we skipped rocks and talked. then .. he kissed me! i know its wrong but i kissed him back. he is so nice and everything a coulnt help it. before we hung out every where i took him to this spot ona trail where there are cliffs above it and then there is this lake you can look over. the trail was beneth us and we started pranking people by throwing bottles down and scaring them. it was probably the funnest day of my life and i didnt cry until i got home and i was all alone again. so then sunday my nana and grandpa cliff came into town from colorado and i really didnt want to tell them what happened and i didnt feel like cryinh anymore so i texted johnathan and we hung out. lol i was suppose to stay clean for my nana but we ended up going to the beach at the lake and played in the sand and the water. then we both sat on the beach and he held me and we just talked. i know i should have but i liked it when he held me. i felt safe again. it got interupted when my dad called and asked if a wanted to eat liunch with him. i took john with me and we had fun. then we went to a park and played for a little bit and then we just talked and he kissed me again. he felt bad and apoligized but i liked it!  thenmy bff savannah texted me and we went and played soft ball at her house. she said she could tell he likes me but idk if i wanna be more than friends. cause if something were to happen and we werent friends anymore my life would really suck!! so anyways my mom has to work today and we get out early so im making him come home with me. i cry when im alone and can think so i think im just gonna have him around all the time. then today i gave dalton all his things back and as i was walking off he said something about wall mart. so i think he saw me and john hanging out at walmart. oh well he dumped me and plus we are only friends:)

October 18

over the weekend my computer broke so i couldnt realy blog :( nothing really happened for once! friday night i did homework so i wouldnt have to do it sunday night, then saturday i cleaned the whole house and my dad came down!! my parents have a very weird relationship! they are married but they dont live together! its better than getting divorsed. oh guess what!! my dad bought me two new horses !!!! ones a two year old girl she is a dark brown thourobred( i think thats how you spell it) and then the other one is a buck skin gelding ! i dont know what to name them yet.. oh and then satureday night my friends nathan and travis texted me and wanted to know if i would go off roading with them but instead i stayed home and watched prince of persha with my family and ate ice cream & popcorn!! best night ever!! sunday me and my family just hung out and stuff.. i went to church with dalton and meet his friends kaitlyn. she seems really awesome! i read a lot and so does she so we talked a lot about books last night.

October 15th

so last night i went and saw dalton on break and there is this girl at work who likes him alot, and the entire time she just sat there and gave me dirty looks. i dont care if she has a thing for him cause he loves me and i love him so there is nothing to worry about. but i still didnt like it to much. it felt like she was about to jump over the counter and kill me! anyways i was so tired i went home and took a nap. i have tis thing were my blood is very very thin and it hard for my heart to pump it out . so  a havent told him about it yet because he already worries about me. well when he came over last night i was asleep and he just came up stairs and kisses me on the cheek :0 we sat there and talked for about 2 hours before he had to leave. i told him and i feel so bad cause he couldnt sleep. he was up all night cause he had this dream that we were married and i had a baby boy but because of my condition i died... it made me cry :( i really hope that dont happen!

October 14th, 2010

Last night I found out that Dalton is about to ask me to marry him!!! He doesnt know that I know but when we went to church last night this lady didnt know what the ring was for so she just asked me my ring size! He is having it customed made so it relates to us. Like last friday we were walking down the hall and someone was like Karlee , Dalton and held up there hands making a heart and we made a heart back with our hands still connected so it made a connected heart and he put that on my ring! I talked to his brother Justin and made him tell me everything(sorry im nosey) and he plans to ask my dad before he asks me! which I think is so sweet and kinda old fashioned but I love how much of a gentleman he is :) He is going into the marine corp and tradtition in my family is that we get married when he graduates out of boot camp. Him, my dad, and my brother all sit around and tell stories. Gabe just got out this year and my dad got out a long time ago but still remembers everything. Every generation there is a guy who goes into the marine corp its kinda a tradition I guess. I think since dalton will soon be part of the family it counts. well anyways I know my dad will say yes cause he loves Dalton and already thinks of him as part of the family. He also loves him casue Dalton has never tried to pull the moves on me or make me do anything i dont want to  and the fact the we are waitin :)