thanksgiving so far sucks!!

wellits tanksgiving and its suppose to be fun and stuff but for me it aint!! me and cmron are on speaking terms but not together and he keps saying that he just wants to kill himself if he cant be with me but i dont trust him anymore.. he has to earn it back and until then we are just gonna be friends!  now the whole thing with jeremy is just like camron.. i have decided i aint gonne date until i can date him and he said the EXACT same thing.. well i got on his face book today and his status says "missing my babygirl cant wait to see you friday sweetheart" !! he is freaking lieing to me! and he got pissed at me for some guy saying i was dating him! he tells me he loves me and everything and i do love him but he is probably telling her the same thing!! why are guys such jerks!!?? im never gonna date!! im so sick of all their lies!! thats all men do is lie!!

omg i cant believe camron!!

so you know how we broke up a while back.. well we got to talking and he was tellin me how he loves me and cant live without me and junk.. weel i feel for it and started datin him.. well it turns out he is also dating this girl named elizabeth... life suck sometimes!so i told him to hit the road and to never talk to me again!! i couldnt believe him!! well now that im single again guys wont leave me alone!! sometimes i wish i as gay! anyways landyn wants to date, so does dustin, jeremy, james, steven, and johnathan!! i dont think i can handle all this much longer!

long time no post

its been awile since i last posted and it sint cause nothing has been going on either.. its cause i was sick and then very lazy... anyways i think in my last post i said something about alonso liking me... well i really dont text him because of that fact.. i already have enough boy problems... so im stiill going to snowflake with james ! im flying out on th 17th and ill get in around one in the moring and ill get maybe 5 hours sleep before i have to get up and do stuff to get  ready for the dance and go x mas shopping... at one i hae to go to the movies with james then to hastings( tradition) go back to my house get ready.. go to the lake and take pictures then diiner then the dance.... it gets over at midnight and we go get ice  ream after wards.. i probably wont get home till one.. lovely right!! the next day im doing a dozen things with johnathan!! and on and on down my line of friends..any minute free goes to jeremy:) so lately he hasnt been texting me and i got really worried well today boots texted me asking me if i was cheating in him with this guy named cory ford(btw dont even know who this is) and i said no...and thewn it hit me! thats why he hasnt been talking to me... he asked me a couple of days ago if i knew the guy and i said no and that was the end of it.. i texted him and asked what was going on and he said two people told him and he oesnt know what to belive so i called anna who is like my sister and she called him and threewayed it.. he said that he loves me and is gonna believe me over them !! im so happy i got my babby back!!!

Boy list

I realized it might get confusing between all the guys in my life so im gonna get them straight for you

Alonso- likes me and wants to ask me out
Justin(boots)- really likes me and thinks he is gonna get a chance
Camron- loves me and wants to get married
canyon- likes me but really only wants to "get with me"
casey- ex boyfriend and wants to get back together
chad- ex boyfriend and always wants me back no matter how many times i say no!
Chaise- we hooked up and he still wants to date me..
chapin- ex boyfriend and wants to get back together
Cody- just a friend
Dalton- we were gonna married but he dumped me but he says he still loves me
Dillan- has wanted to date me since the 9th grade and says he loves me
James- my best friend since i moved to russellville an di do have feelinhs for him but im scared
Jeremy- my"boyfriend" sorta i mean we are wating for eachother so we can try again. i really like him
Johnathan- ex boyfriend and wants to get back together
jon- party buddy
Josh- this guy who wont leave me alone he says he will wait forever and i plan on making him wait that long.
Landyn- i meet him a maplewood academy and i guess we are "buddys"
Nathan- dated and he is a complete ass! he thinks we will get back together
Robert- ex boyfriend and we will always just stay friends
Travis Gagnon- we were together but i dumped him cause he was kinda a jerk and plus i dumped him for nathan. he want to marry me!
travis gardner- he just wants a chance but i dont know if he will ever get one.
Camron- he doesnt want to be with anyone but me and if i dont cate him he sayd he will kill himself. he really just needs to get over me.

Day Three... not so bad

day three wasnt so bad...it was a block schedule and i only had to go to odd classes and i didnt have class fifth period so i got lunch and fifth off... two hour break!! i called my aunt and went shopping and went out to lunch... all together it was a good day. and guess what! i get two hours off every thursday!! omg you wont believe what happened to me last night! ok so i was just laying on the couch watching Criminal Minds and my friend Alonso texted me and asked when i was coming back cause he really missed me... well i told him this summer for a visit and he got all sad and sadi he had to tell me something but now that i aint really coming back there was no point...i got him to tell me and guess what??!! he said he was gonna ask me out cause he really liked me and he loves my smile! i always kinda liked him so that made my day!

day two:/

so day two was kinda interesting...i went to first period instead of second, man did i feel like a moron! we have a block schedule wensday(even classes) and thursday(odd classes) and its so confusing! so second period i have us history and to be honest i think the teacher has no clue what she is talking about... we are learning about the civil war and the whole hour and a half was a movie. turns out thats all it ever is! dont get me wrong i dont mind having lazy days but i love history and i actually wanna learn about it! alot of people think im a stupid inbreed hillbilly... cant wait to prove them wrong!! well fourth period i had chemistry and the teacher is from clarksville! he went to collage at tech in russellville! its kinda nice to have someone know what its really like down there! he took me to the peer helpers and they seemed really nice:) there was this guy and he was joking around with me about how it never snows down there... he keeps saying i dont know what ski's or snow looks like! it so funny and to be honest he is kinda cute....i know that i have enough boy problems between camron, jeremy,james, and now landyn but they all live so far away... and to be honest i dont know if im gonna move back next year... i like it here and i dont feel like dealing with everything back home.. i let james read that story and he thinks it about us but i really didnt mean it to be so now he wont leave me alone... dont get me wrong he is my best friend and i do care for him but im realizing that it really isnt like that and that it probably wouldnt work. i have no clue how to tell him that.. ill figure it out.. so anyways at lunch i sat with this girl from chemistry adn she invited me to eat with her at panda exprss tomorrow but idk if i wanna ask for the money... ill proabably just eat at mcdonalds..

Creative writting Story

 Standing in the door way of her new home, looking at her family playing in the floor. A memory flashed across her thoughts. It was a cold night in September during her senior year of high school. She was playing monopoly with her little brother Nathan. She was losing pretty bad due to the fact that she couldn’t focus on the game. Instead her thoughts were on her best friend Landyn. They had been together since the eighth grade and by each other’s side every second of the day. Although lately they hadn’t been spending much time together. He had been acting very strange lately. Just yesterday he called and cancelled Sunday football and the movies Saturday night. Also that Friday night we would not be playing so it would be best if she didn’t come at all. At first she thought he had a girlfriend and he didn’t want her to scare her off. Then her mind thought that something was wrong with him. Something must be going on with his family. Although she couldn’t prove it the thoughts kept coming back. Frankly it was starting to worry her so bad she couldn’t sleep.


The phone rang pulling her out of these scary thoughts. At first she thought her mom would get it so she continued to play with Nathan. After the third ring she got up to answer.

"Smith residents, Kaitlyn speaking." Her family had always been very formal and it made her feel funny answering the phone like that.

“Kaitlyn its Landyn, can I ask you a favor?" his voice sounded scared and concerned. It sounded like he was terrified she would say no.

"What’s wrong? Are you ok? You sound like you are in trouble or something?"

“I’m fine Kaitlyn stop worrying so much! Gosh sometimes your worse than my mother!" He laughed as he said those words, but she could tell it was forced.

“Ok fine, Ill calm down. So what’s this favor you need? It better not be anything involving jail! Ha-ha I’m just kidding." she hoped that would make him laugh. He had never been the kind to get in any trouble. Being the captain of the football team and a member of student council along with a dozen other clubs has its pluses!

“Can you meet me at our tree in five minutes? I really need to talk to you privately." With those simple words her heart dropped and concern filled the hole where it had been. She knew something was wrong.

“I thought you said nothing was wrong!" she said basically yelling in the phone.

“Nothing is wrong. I promise. Now just meet me in five at our tree.” And with that he hung up the phone. She ran up stairs to her room and grasped the keys to her car and a jacket. Passing by her mother’s room to inform her where she was going and that she would be back by curfew. Nathan was upset that the game was over and he couldn’t beat her anymore than he already was.

As she got into her car to start it memories flashed over her of the past summer when Landyn and her had spent every day rebuilding her car. It was a '67 Camero. They had found it together online and decided to make it their summer project. It was going to be his but he surprised her on her birthday with it. He had done all the work. Mainly because she knew absolutely nothing about cars. That didn’t stop them though. They work from the moment the sun came up till long after the sun was gone from the sky.

With a quick turn of the key the engine fired up with a load rawer. She smiled at the thought of Landyn smiling every time he hear that sound. Slowly she backed out of the driveway pulling out onto the quiet little street. With a small tap on the gas she was off. The drive was only a few blocks and she could have walked but she loved driving her new car.

As she drove she passed little trees that were planted just last year. It was a project her and some friends did. They had seen online that during the ice storm during that winter that some trees had been knocked down. Some of them had to be cut because of the power lines. Landyn and her presented the project to the Peace Club and they were all for it.

So lost in thought Kaitlyn almost pasted the parking lot. Stopping just in time to make the turn she hit the brakes and turned on the turning signal. No matter how many times she visits this place she never fails on missing the parking lot. Carefully she turned in, watching her lights run across the park. Catching the side of Landyn’s pants from behind the tree. He turned to see if it was her or not. With a smile at the sight of here he started to walk over to her. Right away she could tell he was thinking hard about something. His hands were in his Levi's and his head was down. He was avoiding looking her in the eye until he had to.

"You know you could have just come over to my house considering it’s about three houses down." Kaitlyn said with a laugh hoping to make him smile. Something she really wanted to see. There was something about him that got to her. His laugh and smile made her heart jump. Like a grasshopper in the summer when you run through the field behind her house.

"Yeah I know but to be honest I wanted to talk to you alone because I need to get something off my chest. I've known you a very long time and you know I would do anything for you. We have been by each other’s side almost every second of every day. Over this past week i know i have been acting strange and if it bothered you I’m sorry..." “What are you getting at Landyn because you’re starting to scare me?"

"Well, I love you Kaitlyn. I have for a while and when you talked about going to Prom with Jon I wanted to keep mu distance because it seemed like you liked him." Hearing all this somewhat knocked her off her feet. She was expecting something horrible. This was just the opposite. When he said he loved her Kaitlyn knew that she loved him to. She never thought about it before but when he said those words she knew.

"Please say something" he said with concern in his voice. She looked up at him with tears in her eyes. She wanted to say something to him. Something that would let him know she felt the same, but the words just couldn’t come out. She looked up at him crying, nodded and smiled. That was all she could do.

Landyn reached out and grabbed her, pulling her into him “It’s ok Kaitlyn I know what you want to say. You don’t have to be scared. I’m here and I’m not going to hurt you like the others have. I promise."

She knew the truth of his words.

Fifteen years later looking back on that night she smiles at the life it gave her. The husband she now has and the three beautiful girls. If someone had told her years ago she would marry her best friend Kaitlyn would probably laugh in their faces.